The following is an email that my brother in law brian sent to chris and I the day we found out I miscarried... It touched me and I think it was beautifully written so I wanted to share. Hope you don't mind Brian!!!
Hey Bro, Hey Sis -
We are all so very sorry for the loss of your little one. We talked with the kiddos and said a prayer for you all. I wanted to communicate with you, but the day got late and I'm sure you guys are exhausted. So, I'm sending this note so you'll have it when you need it. We love you guys!
When I spoke to Chris today, I had no words. Mostly because I couldn't believe what has happened. I prayed to God for answers, as I did when Keith was diagnosed. As the day continued, I struggled to understand.
As I hugged Kim tonight, I mentioned to her that in times like this, it is hard to know that God is there, and that He cares. Erik heard this and said "Daddy, God is always there." From the mouths of babes... I went outside to gather some wood for an evening fire, prayed some more, and had it heavy on my heart that God speaks to us with these little whispers. To reassure us that He is there and His plan is good.
Later in the evening, as we prepared for bed, Cody grabbed our children's devotional and asked if we could read it tonight. We had not read it in quite some time, so it was odd that he chose to read it this night. He showed me the page... January 8th... titled... "Sometimes I Whisper"
There is no such thing as coincidence.
Regardless of our desires, or heartbrokenness, all things serve a purpose.
We are so sad. So sorry beyond words. My eyes are teary and my heart is broken. Yet, He is with us. He is with you. May He comfort you now.
"God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble." Psalm 46:1
Love,
Brian
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Sunday, January 13, 2013
The past week
Thank you all for your prayers and kind thoughts.
To update everyone in the past week of events...
Tuesday we found out our baby no longer had a heartbeat. My body needed help completing the miscarriage. My mom and sister came to town to help me with everything. Dealing with emotions of losing the baby and to help me recover from the procedure. My d&c Surgery was on Friday morning. We got home from the hospital around 3... I began to bleed... we realized it was me hemorrhaging and went to the ER around 9 hours after the first surgery.
They decided I needed to be rushed into emergency surgery at 2 or 3 in the morning to stop the bleeding.
Basically I almost needed a blood transfusion. They were concerned that I may have needed to have my uterus removed if they couldn't get the bleeding under control. I am now starting to realize how close to dying I could have been and how scary this whole experience was for my wonderful and loving husband Chris, sister, mom, and the rest of my family ad friends.
I am now home recovering. Still very sore. A little slower than I once was - from the lower blood count. My arms look like pin cushions. But I am alive. I am so blessed to have so many prayers coming my way from people than didn't even know what exactly was going on.
I am so blessed.
To update everyone in the past week of events...
Tuesday we found out our baby no longer had a heartbeat. My body needed help completing the miscarriage. My mom and sister came to town to help me with everything. Dealing with emotions of losing the baby and to help me recover from the procedure. My d&c Surgery was on Friday morning. We got home from the hospital around 3... I began to bleed... we realized it was me hemorrhaging and went to the ER around 9 hours after the first surgery.
They decided I needed to be rushed into emergency surgery at 2 or 3 in the morning to stop the bleeding.
Basically I almost needed a blood transfusion. They were concerned that I may have needed to have my uterus removed if they couldn't get the bleeding under control. I am now starting to realize how close to dying I could have been and how scary this whole experience was for my wonderful and loving husband Chris, sister, mom, and the rest of my family ad friends.
I am now home recovering. Still very sore. A little slower than I once was - from the lower blood count. My arms look like pin cushions. But I am alive. I am so blessed to have so many prayers coming my way from people than didn't even know what exactly was going on.
I am so blessed.
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Big News!
So this is a little late but...
we're pregnant!
Baby Rafacz at 12 weeks. He/she was dancing during the ultrasound. We could not believe how active the baby was! Nice strong heart beat. It all became real!
Bad at documenting pictures but here is what I have...
13 weeks
Christmas Eve is when we made it facebook official. Earilier in the day we were to get an ultrasound and share our joy with my mom, mom in law, dad, sister, Sister in law Kim, and niece Sierra. Little one didn't want to show us any hint of what the gender was though!
16 weeks
More belly updates to come. We have our next appointment on January 24th!
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Hurricane Sandy
Stuck inside all day has lead me to try to entertain the dogs without making too much noise while Chris is sleeping (he is working nights).
At least they are sharing!
At least they are sharing!
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Virginia Yoda Rafacz - the new member of our family
We drove up to a town about 3 hours away called Luray to look a few frenchton puppies (half French bulldog and half Boston terrier).
We went just to look... And fell in love!
Her original name was Diamond. Not a huge of that name so we started thinking of different names that would go with her sister's name. We went with the state theme... GA and VA ... I think she looks like Yoda.
We went just to look... And fell in love!
Her original name was Diamond. Not a huge of that name so we started thinking of different names that would go with her sister's name. We went with the state theme... GA and VA ... I think she looks like Yoda.
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